Anxious

It has been a trying few months.  My husband has been sick since the beginning of November.  On and off coughing, congestion, headache, sinusitis etc.  You get the drift.  Add in all the holidays, travel to Minnesota, a blow up of his health while there with swelling in his whole body, a hospital visit with a strange diagnosis, plus a new health coverage all has had me anxious.  That's the word I have been feeling.  I have had headaches, tenseness and just plain ole edginess.  I was trying to figure out what was happening to me the other day and realized I am ANXIOUS.  So I thought I would look up the word and find it's meaning. 

 Definition of ANXIOUS

:  characterized by extreme uneasiness of mind or brooding fear about some contingency :  worried

Yep, that's me!
I didn't want to say I was worried but there it is.  Extreme uneasiness of mind.  That is where I have been.  I trust my God to care for me and all those I hold dear so why the uneasiness of mind?  To say that I am ok with Tom's health issue right now is an untruth.  I don't want him to be sick.  I want answers and so far we haven't gotten much as to what can help...  Nephrotic syndrome....What the heck??  He had cancer 10 years ago and I told him I was not anxious about that like I am this. I had peace. Cancer the word everyone is familiar with. So hard to go through, but at least you can explain it.  I don't know what Focal segmental glomerulosclerosis is. I don't know what to expect, let alone explain it to anyone.  As I type this I guess all these unknowns are what have me on edge.  
I just want it over with and I want my husband to feel good and energized. But I also want to trust God every step of the way. I just am not sure how to get there right now.  I'm asking through prayer over and over for God to help me to lay down my anxious thoughts and for Him to fill me with his peace.  Here is the best answer I can find.  I have done the praying....guess I need a little more thankfulness. 

Philippians 4:6

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.